Empty and Lost
Saturday, March 3, 2012
My "boyfriend" is not talking to me..we've been having cold war for the past few days. i don't know whats wrong.it just doesnt feel the same anymore.dont feel the love anymore. My heart is just empty now..more of emotionless. i try not to think of us fighting and drifitng apart..it just hurts. and im tired of hurting. What he doesnt understand is how emotional i am. I cry if i watch a touching movie...even the i not stupid movie...they all have one thing in common. is how unappreciated and unloved they feel. i just feel that with him.
On tuesday,before we went out...i had imah do a make-over for me. they all said i looked pretty. i thought i looked pretty...but i didnt feel that way with him. all i got were just questions.i didnt feel like talking to him after that because i was upset. He didnt want to talk to me either. After that it just went downhill...our talks on the phone got shorter and lesser things to talk about. SMSes are just worse.no reply,no answer, no nothing.i feel he doesnt care anymore. What am i suppose to do..
I think of giving up...but i still have hope for us. i just hope it gets better after i come back from KL. he went to pulau ubin to fish. I miss him alot. I miss all the times we laughed and smile and had fun together. i pray that we will be alright soon. For now,im just bottling up my feelings.ill keep them cork-ed in till i have a reason to let them out in tears again...
This blog is the place where i let out my feelings and thoughts.its where i feel safe to share my secrets cause no one would read it anymore. Why am i so emotional? i just need some love...
Labels: Emotional Wreck